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In Sight of my God

“In Sight of my God” is a song about losing faith in the god of your childhood and discovering the fundamental, earthy God within.

Modchik is the long time musical project of John Stanford. His latest album “Canton” is the usual story of boy meets girl, boy nearly drowns, girl is mentally unstable, boy becomes alcoholic, girl kills herself, boy loses himself in depression, girl discovers where suicides go after death, boy loses faith in God. It features songs influenced by his move to the wilds of Northern New York. Modchik’s musical influences include Bauhaus, Kraut Rock, The Waterboys, Nick Cave, Elvis Presley, The Carpenters, David Bowie, Sonic Youth, The Velvet Underground, Mercury Rev, Mike Garson, The Concretes, Rufus Wainwright and Aqua. John is also, writer, director, and producer of the film Firofyfe, which was screened at the Queens (NY) Film Festival and the Takoma Park Film Festival.

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The holes in your hands,
And the blood on your brow,
They mean nothing,
At all.
Supreme masochist.
All the feet that you kissed,
It changed nothing,
At all

When we come, we drink,
we form, we hate,
we doubt, we call,
We become

When we cry, we walk,
we serve, we feel,
we write, we feed,
We become

When we end, we turn,
we have, we see,
we start, we need,
We become

When we stumble, produce,
diminish, compete,
abandon, unlock
We become

In the cold, in the dark,
In the pain, in the scars,
When alone with what’s ours
We become

In the cold, in the dark,
When it all falls apart
Alone with our holes
We become

And I’ll stab my eyes in the sight of my god.
And I’ll flay my skin in the sight of my god.
And I’ll burn my hair in the sight of my god.
And I’ll break my fingers in the sight of my god.


from The Hermetic Library Anthology Album - Magick, Music and Ritual 3, released June 15, 2012
John Stanford: All Music, Lyrics, Instruments, Vocals


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